Stupidity

Stupid
So Stupid I am..
why everytime i still think about the same thing
thing that i shouldn't thought about..
that thing made me feel very complicated

dumbness in my head
fool about myself
i just can't get rid this thing..
DAMN !

Why?
this is my ultimate superior number one stupidity
there were always 2 question that bother me every two second before i slept
" Am I still LOVE him? "
and
" What He felt about Me now? "

Super Stupid
I realized and I already know the answer
it's YES & NO
But sometimes I just felt wanna run away from the answer
just wanna be blinded & deaf about everything
and just let everything normally runs

OH GOSH !!
I just can't help it anymore..
what should I do??!!